Sairam! I feel compelled to share the profound spiritual experiences I had in Vrindavan, a journey that reinforced my unwavering faith in Lord Krishna and Radha Rani. My visit to this sacred land followed my pilgrimage to the Kumbh Mela in Prayagraj, and it was nothing short of divine orchestration—an affirmation of my faith, devotion, and the path of Bhakti.
The Uniqueness of Lord Krishna’s Love
One of the most beautiful aspects of Lord Krishna is that every devotee experiences His divine presence in a deeply personal way. He is the Supreme Consciousness, yet He meets each seeker exactly where they are, revealing Himself uniquely to each heart.
For me, my bond with Lord Krishna has been one of intense yearning and suffering, a reflection of my prarabdha karma—the residual karma carried from past lives. This journey, though arduous, has been deeply fulfilling, leading me to a greater understanding of divine love and surrender.
The Unfulfilled Darshan That Stayed in My Heart
My first visit to Vrindavan was as a teenager when my uncle, Capt. Chari, was posted in Dehradun. I vividly remember visiting Vrindavan in the evening, eagerly hoping for darshan of Banke Bihari, only to leave disappointed as the temple doors had closed. That moment remained in my heart for years, an unfulfilled longing that I carried with me.
A few years later, while studying in Sri Sathya Sai Baba’s ashram, I was blessed with a personal interview with Him. In that divine moment, Swami revealed that my connection with Him extended back to the time of Lord Krishna. This revelation deepened my faith and intensified my yearning to seek Krishna and Radha Rani in this lifetime.
Radha Rani, Meera Bai, and My Journey Through Bhakti
From childhood, I have felt an inexplicable pull toward Radha Rani, the embodiment of unconditional love and devotion. I found similar inspiration in Meera Bai, whose life epitomized complete surrender to the Lord. Their bhakti became my guiding light, urging me to walk the path of divine love without hesitation.
But faith is often tested, and my spiritual journey led me to encounters that shook my belief, forcing me to reaffirm my devotion.
The Test of Faith – A Pseudo-Guru’s Deception
In my search for higher spiritual truths, I came across various masters, many of whom enriched my path. However, as a final test of my faith, I encountered a pseudo-guru who, through manipulation and deceptive reasoning, convinced me and several other seekers that Radha Rani did not exist. The very foundation of my devotion was challenged.
This experience, though painful, was an essential lesson—a reminder to be steadfast in one’s faith and never fall prey to those who attempt to sever our connection with the Divine.
Vrindavan – A Homecoming of Divine Grace
After the Kumbh Mela in Prayagraj, I arrived in Vrindavan late at night, eager to meet Sri Premjit Maharaj, a living embodiment of divine love. After just two hours of rest, I proceeded for his darshan and was blessed by his presence.
Determined to seek the Lord’s grace, I visited Radha Raman Mandir, where, through divine timing, I arrived just before the first aarti of the day. The temple was serene, with only a handful of devotees, and I felt deeply blessed to witness Radha Raman and Sri Radha Vallabh Mandir in such peace and intimacy.
However, my greatest test awaited me at Banke Bihari Temple.
A Miracle at Banke Bihari Temple
My heart was set on having darshan at Banke Bihari Temple, but as I approached, I saw massive crowds. All three roads leading to the temple were jam-packed, and it seemed impossible to even get a glimpse of the Lord. My heart sank. Would I once again leave Vrindavan without His darshan?
With deep yearning, I prayed for Krishna’s mercy and asked a policeman for help. He informed me that the chances were slim but allowed me to join the long queue of devotees. I surrendered to Krishna’s will and stepped into the line, hoping for even a fleeting glimpse.
As I reached the main hall, standing at the very end of the crowd, my heart overflowed with emotion. I caught a distant view of Banke Bihari, and tears began to roll down my face. But then, something inexplicable happened.
A sudden push from behind propelled me forward, and within minutes, I found myself ten rows ahead! Then, in the VIP section, a man extended his hand toward me. I couldn’t reach him due to the crowd, but to my astonishment, fellow devotees made way for me. Within moments, I was standing right in front of the Lord Himself!
No one asked me to move. I stood there, utterly intoxicated in divine bliss. The temple priest handed me flowers and the sacred Vastra of the Lord—a sign of divine acceptance. I wept, overwhelmed by Krishna’s grace.
When the Lord chooses to accept you, He orchestrates miracles beyond imagination.
Radha Rani’s Whisper in Nidhi Van
A similar mystical experience unfolded at Nidhi Van, the sacred grove where Radha and Krishna’s divine pastimes continue to this day. With the help of a local guide, I entered and soon fell into a trance-like state.
I heard a voice within me—Radha Rani’s loving assurance. She revealed that had I persisted in my sadhana a few more years, I would have attained my spiritual goal. But despite my temporary deviation, she was pleased that I had returned.
At that moment, I reflected on the words of the pseudo-guru who had tried to deter me from my faith. His deception now stood as a stark contrast to Radha Rani’s direct assurance. She revealed deeper truths about my past connections to Vrindavan, reinforcing my purpose.
Meera’s Abode and the Echo of Past Lives
My journey also led me to Meera Bai’s house, a place imbued with serenity and divine longing. As I stood in her sacred space, I was enveloped in bliss. Visions of my past life in Vrindavan surfaced, strengthening my resolve to remain devoted to Radha Krishna.
A Message to All Seekers – Beware of Deception, Stay Steadfast in Bhakti
Reflecting on my experiences, I see that Lord Krishna, as the Supreme Consciousness, reveals Himself to those who truly seek Him. Radha Rani is not merely a historical figure—she is the essence of divine love, guiding every sincere devotee on their journey.
Unfortunately, in Kali Yuga, there are many who attempt to deceive seekers, steering them away from faith through intellectual arguments or false authority. I pray for such souls—for they are accumulating negative karma by denying the divine love of Radha Krishna.
To my fellow sadhakas, I urge you:
Do not fall prey to pseudo-gurus.
Remain steadfast in your faith, no matter the trials.
Remember, your spiritual breakthrough is just around the corner!
When the Lord calls, He removes all obstacles and grants you His divine embrace. Trust in Him. Surrender to Him. And let the nectar of Vrindavan’s love dissolve all worldly tribulations.
Radhe Radhe! 🙏💛
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